When we are too desperate, we lose our defined purpose and direction to keep us in useless and fruitless rivalry and race.
Why are you in a fierce race with someone you do not have the same position, level and destination with?
Why are you in a violent competition with someone you do not have the same goal and ambition with?
Why are soo worried about things only God can change?, do what you can and leave the rest to Him.
Why are you still trying force yourself on people?, add value to yourself, they will one day search for you.
When we are too desperate to win in life, we over focus on trivialities and side attractions.
When we are over ambitious to succeed, everybody becomes our rival, opponent and detractor.
Why are you too desperate? Life is not all about winning, for you will not always win.
Do not rush, try to learn, know, understand the reality of life and move purposefully but prudently.